Food for Thought

This came up in a msn conversation a minute ago.
We listened to a man on the radio talking about how his wife had been diagnosed with dementia, he was her carer and slowly she was losing the function to think. all their plans were gone because they had taken their health for granted. it is not permanant.
this is terrible you may think but i can bring you something worse, we agreed that this was an awful situation, we felt sorry for the man yet 3 minutes later we had both forgotten about it. but now this memory cannot be lost, it is written and 10 maybe 15 people will think about it which is nowhere near what this man deserves.
but we can't live our life feeling sorry for others, we must move on, but just for a minute think how lucky you are, even when stuff is going wrong. think.
today is the 21st of february
the time is 00:49

in the last 5 minutes:

in the last 5 minutes someone will have been diagnosed with a terminal disease. that person will have family, maybe 10 members. and friends, maybe 50. over the next week all will realise how precious time is.

in the last 5 minutes someone will have found out they will lose a friend to a terminal illness and will have made someone else sad by being depressed themselves.

in the last 5 minutes someone will have taken their own life

in the last 5 minutes hundreds of people will have died

in the last 5 minutes the dreams of many will have been shattered

in the last 5 minutes a marriage will have been broken

in the last 5 minutes someone will have been killed, murdered

in the last 5 minutes a baby will have been born into a life where it is unwanted and will suffer

in the last 5 minutes someone will have been forgotten

in the last 5 minutes someone will have gone unrewarded and given up

in the last 5 minutes someone will have cried


the link between these, shown in the first, is that all have reverberations all affect many many people.
your problems are nothing compared to these but if you let them affect you they will affect many other people.

in the last 5 minutes something minor will have gone wrong for almost everyone
however
in the next 5 minutes someone will be availible to help

if you are reading this you are lucky, you have wonderful friends who will listen.

in the last 5 minutes many healthy wanted children were born who will provide joy to many around them. they will grow up to be great friends and great people.
in the last 5 minutes someone, somewhere will be happy. i hope in the next 5 minutes it is you.

poignant

i am not even sure the title is the right word, i think it is otherwise i wouldn't have put it, but it may bear no relevance in which case oh well.
i suppose i could have said thought provoking, but thats not right, its more memory provoking. or i could have said up lifting, but its not because it is kind of depressing,
so why didn't i put depressing, because it isn't, it has made me very happy. confusing might seem to sum it up but it would be even wronger, i know exactly what i am feeling and thinking, i even know how i might write it down but i just cant. so i will just have to hope that poignant does it.
ok, i know that paragraph probably made little sense, if you are still reading thats an achievement.
well, to fill you in, i recently found a piece of music i have been searching for for about 7 or 8 years. it is from a film released in 2000. i am not going to say what music it is because:
a) as you will see its quite personal
b) you would think i am a weirdo

but if you really care ask me, i might say, depends what mood i am in.

now, i am happy for finding this music, as i say i have been looking and trying to find out what it is for ages, tonight i thought of somewhere i might find it but was disappointed, then found it by accident 2 minutes later. you know that feeling, particularly made by music where it really touches you, well thats it. here is just some of the reasons why this music means so much to me:
1. one of my earliest memories revolves around this music, trying to record it. i liked it even back then, this might even be my earliest memory
2. i love the music itself
3. this is music which i listened to repeatedlyback in 2000, this makes me think about life back then, i know i have been saying life is good now, but i can't help feeling it was so much better then, so much has happened, not all for the best
4. (this is the biggest) this piece of music reminds me of my mum, massively, i am sure i listened to it with her but that's not the point. you know if you were asked to some a person up in a piece of music, well this would have to be it.

that is why it speaks to me so much
that is why i am so happy it finding it yet it is actually making me really sad, really really sad. pathetic, i really don't care.

often people would now post the lyrics but i am not doing this for 2 reasons:
1) it annoys me when people do that, just a bit, cos i don't actually want to read what other people have written
2) it doesn't have lyrics

tiredness

ok i am so tired and i don't really know why.
sure i have had a couple of late nights but i shouldn't be this tired i am having trouble texting and typing ?!?!
usually this would mean i was mistaking tiredness for depression but no, i am really happy. my life, although i sometimes don't think so, is going really really well.
i will give you an example - this time last year i could not name 8 people who would count me as a mate, and now i have a whole group of friends who i know sometimes i don't deserve. so thanks, i do appreciate you.
its odd how you realise this stuff when you are tired