poignant

i am not even sure the title is the right word, i think it is otherwise i wouldn't have put it, but it may bear no relevance in which case oh well.
i suppose i could have said thought provoking, but thats not right, its more memory provoking. or i could have said up lifting, but its not because it is kind of depressing,
so why didn't i put depressing, because it isn't, it has made me very happy. confusing might seem to sum it up but it would be even wronger, i know exactly what i am feeling and thinking, i even know how i might write it down but i just cant. so i will just have to hope that poignant does it.
ok, i know that paragraph probably made little sense, if you are still reading thats an achievement.
well, to fill you in, i recently found a piece of music i have been searching for for about 7 or 8 years. it is from a film released in 2000. i am not going to say what music it is because:
a) as you will see its quite personal
b) you would think i am a weirdo

but if you really care ask me, i might say, depends what mood i am in.

now, i am happy for finding this music, as i say i have been looking and trying to find out what it is for ages, tonight i thought of somewhere i might find it but was disappointed, then found it by accident 2 minutes later. you know that feeling, particularly made by music where it really touches you, well thats it. here is just some of the reasons why this music means so much to me:
1. one of my earliest memories revolves around this music, trying to record it. i liked it even back then, this might even be my earliest memory
2. i love the music itself
3. this is music which i listened to repeatedlyback in 2000, this makes me think about life back then, i know i have been saying life is good now, but i can't help feeling it was so much better then, so much has happened, not all for the best
4. (this is the biggest) this piece of music reminds me of my mum, massively, i am sure i listened to it with her but that's not the point. you know if you were asked to some a person up in a piece of music, well this would have to be it.

that is why it speaks to me so much
that is why i am so happy it finding it yet it is actually making me really sad, really really sad. pathetic, i really don't care.

often people would now post the lyrics but i am not doing this for 2 reasons:
1) it annoys me when people do that, just a bit, cos i don't actually want to read what other people have written
2) it doesn't have lyrics